Being Thankful When I Don’t Feel Thankful

This Thanksgiving, I don’t feel particularly thankful.

My family’s going through a rough time. My wife and daughter have had long-term medical issues; my hip has been hurting for the last 2 ½ years, and I found out two weeks ago that I need a total hip replacement. We’ve been financially stressed since I left my teaching career 5 ½ years ago, and just as we were finally getting some financial stability, I lost my job last week. With the job loss goes the semi-affordable insurance I need to pay for my hip surgery. Sometimes, life just stinks.

The economy stinks, so it may be a while before I can get another job where I can make enough money to pay the bills. The prospect of going broke and losing everything I’ve worked for has left me depressed, and I’m tired of the constant physical pain in my hip. And, yes, while I realize I still have more than most people in the world, it’s not a whole lot of consolation. And yes, of course, I still have my family. But, from the perspective of a middle-aged American who sees his health and the American Dream slipping through his fingers, there’s not an abundance to be thankful for this year.

Fortunately, as a follower of Jesus Christ, there is much more to life than economic security and physical health. God has promised many things those of us who have chosen to follow Him.

In Matthew 6:33, Jesus said, “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” What things is He talking about? In verse 25, Jesus said, “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?” He continues in verses 31-32: “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.” So, when He says in verse 33, “these things shall be added to you,” He is talking about our material needs. God promises to meet the material needs of those who “seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness.” Note that this does not say He will meet our desires, only our needs. There is no “prosperity gospel” in the Bible; there is only the promise that God will provide for the basic needs of those who are truly seeking Him.

But far beyond meeting my physical needs, God has promised to be with me through the trials of life. This is not just some pie-in-the-sky future reward after death, but a promise to walk with me, guide me, and comfort me through the trials of today. One of my favorite passages in all the Bible comes from Romans 8:31-39:

31 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things? 33 Who shall bring a charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. 34 Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died, and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 As it is written:

“For Your sake we are killed all day long;
We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.”

37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. 38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

First, notice that this is written for the present, not just the future: God is for us; Christ makes intercession for us; we are more than conquerors; the love of God is in Christ Jesus out Lord.

As a follower of Jesus Christ, the most important thing in all of life is my relationship with God through the blood of Jesus Christ. My sin separated me from God; the blood of Jesus has provided reconciliation. Because I have confessed my guilt before holy God, believed and received forgiveness through Jesus Christ, and repented of my sin, I am reconciled with God and have become an adopted child in His family. And nothing can change this. God never promises that His children won’t ever face “tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword.” But, He does promise that by and through His grace, mercy, and love, I am able to conquer all these things. God loves me so much that He sent His only Son, Jesus Christ, to die for my sin (John 3:16). And, He promises that I can never be separated from His love.

This Thanksgiving, I’m not thankful for my health issues, or my unemployment, or the depression that accompanies these things. But, despite the fact that I don’t feel especially thankful, I am thankful for a wife and family that stands by me despite my shortcomings, and I’m especially thankful for the love and grace of God through Jesus Christ, and His promise to see me through the trials of this life.

Sometimes, Life Stinks.

Sometimes, life just plain stinks.

Last week, my orthopedic surgeon informed me that I need a total hip replacement.

Yesterday, I lost my job.

My immediate reaction to both issues was to get angry, then depressed. And honestly, I’m still more than a little upset.

How should I, as a follower of Jesus Christ, respond when bad stuff happens?

First, it’s important to understand why evil exists.

God created this world sinless and perfect. There was no death, no illness, no unemployment, and no sin. There was no anger, no depression, and no crap to deal with. It was a perfect world.

Until Adam sinned.

17 Then to Adam He said, “Because you have heeded the voice of your wife, and have eaten from the tree of which I commanded you, saying, ‘You shall not eat of it’:

“Cursed is the ground for your sake;
In toil you shall eat of it
All the days of your life.
18 Both thorns and thistles it shall bring forth for you,
And you shall eat the herb of the field.
19 In the sweat of your face you shall eat bread
Till you return to the ground,
For out of it you were taken;
For dust you are,
And to dust you shall return.” (Genesis 3:17-19)

12 Therefore, just as through one man sin entered the world, and death through sin, and thus death spread to all men, because all sinned— 13 (For until the law sin was in the world, but sin is not imputed when there is no law. 14 Nevertheless death reigned from Adam to Moses, even over those who had not sinned according to the likeness of the transgression of Adam, who is a type of Him who was to come. 15 But the free gift is not like the offense. For if by the one man’s offense many died, much more the grace of God and the gift by the grace of the one Man, Jesus Christ, abounded to many. (Romans 5:12-15)

All of the sin, death, illness, anger, natural disasters, depression, other problems, and other evils are a direct consequence of Adam’s sin. Adam’s sin changed the perfect world that God designed, and polluted it.

However, we can’t blame it all on Adam. Our sin has added to the problem.

Sometimes, bad stuff happens as a direct result of our own sin. We make bad choices that lead to bad consequences.

But sometimes, bad stuff happens, and it has nothing to do with anything we personally did; it’s a result of the sin in the world. It can be the result of demonic activity, and it can also be the result of God’s judgement for the sin of society. Evil can have different causes, but those causes all trace back to the same root cause – sin.

In any case, how should followers of Jesus Christ handle the crap that life serves us?

For me, the key is to realize the sufferings of this life are temporary. The perfection God planned for the human race will be realized in eternity.

18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. (Romans 8:18)

And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away. (Revelation 21:4)

And there shall be no more curse, but the throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it, and His servants shall serve Him. (Revelation 22:3)

Life on this earth is but the blink of an eye in the grand scheme of eternity. The junk we live through in this life is only temporary. For followers of Jesus Christ, the current life is the worst it will ever be; for unbelievers, unfortunately, this life is the best it will ever be.

The other thing is that, even though we must face a lot of pain and suffering in this world, as a Christian, I have the Holy Spirit living inside me to comfort, guide, and direct me through the junk of life.

33 These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)

35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
36 
As it is written:

“For Your sake we are killed all day long;
We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.”

37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.  38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:35-39)

While I’m still hurt, depressed, and scared about both my hip and my job situation, I am holding on to the promises God has given me in His word. God never promised to keep His followers from the difficulties of life, but rather promised to walk with us through the difficulties. And, while I know I’ll struggle during the next days (or weeks, or months, depending on when I find another job and/or have my surgery), I know that God is with me through the process, and that He is in control of the situation.

Personal Log, May 6, 2012

Life is full of changes.

Sometimes, change is for the better; sometimes, it’s for the worse.

Most people don’t like change. We get comfortable with the way things have been. Change interrupts our routines and comfort – it’s an inconvenience. Yet in reality, the only constant in life is change. Well, OK, and taxes.

For the last five years, I have worked for the Answers in Genesis ministry, in several different roles. I worked in the Dragonhall Bookstore at the Creation Museum; I have worked in the AiG warehouse, shipping out hundreds of thousands of books, DVDs, and other materials to thousands of people. I have written articles for Answers Magazine, and Junior High curriculum materials for the new Answers Bible Curriculum. Along the way, I’ve been tremendously blessed by the incredible people I’ve had the honor and privilege to work with. They will never know, this side of Heaven, how much they have encouraged me and how much I have learned from them. I can only hope I’ve been half the blessing to them that they’ve been to me.

May 18th, 2012 will be my last day at Answers in Genesis, at least as a full-time employee.

God has led me to take a new job at AdvancePierre foods as an inventory analyst.

I’m entering a new mission field.

The biggest drawback of working in ministry or with a non-profit organization is that the pay isn’t all that great. It’s been a struggle for my family and I to make ends meet on the salary I’ve been earning. This isn’t a complaint; it’s a sacrifice I’ve been willing to make for the last five years, because I know that God placed me at AiG for a reason. God has always provided enough money to keep a roof over our heads and food on the table, and often provided more than enough for us to have many of the things we didn’t necessarily need. Sometimes, His provision has been downright miraculous. I praise God that He has seen always provided enough.

This new position will pay significantly more than what I earned at AiG. My prayer is that this will allow me to focus less on finances, and more on ministry. My greatest desire is to reach people with the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and I am praying that this new position will give me more time and resources to be able to minister to people through my church, Fairfield First Baptist, and elsewhere.

Please pray for my family and me as we go through this transition. Pray also for my teammates in the AiG warehouse, as they transition as well. Most of all, please pray that God will use this new situation in my life, and that I will allow God to use me as He sees fit to reach people for His kingdom.

Personal Log, March 10, 2012

More random facts:

According to the oldest known Roman cookbook, written circa A.D. 228, sausage was a favorite dish at the annual pagan fertility festival Lupercalia, held February 15 in honor of the pastoral god Lupercus. The early Catholic Church outlawed the Lupercalia Festival , and declared the eating of sausage to be a sin. Therefore, the Roman emperor Constantine banned the eating of sausages.


If you have 3 quarters, 4 dimes, and 4 pennies, you have $1.19. You also have the largest amount of money in coins without being able to make change for a dollar.


In the state of Arkansas, it is against the law to mispronounce to word “Arkansas.”


The Jules Undersea Lodge is an underwater hotel in Key Largo, Florida and is the only such hotel in the United States. It is 30 feet (9 m) deep in a lagoon lagoon, and guests must scuba dive to get to their rooms.  And, I’ve seen it while snorkeling (but didn’t get to go inside).


Tug-of –war was an Olympic sport from 1900 – 1920.    The tug-of-war contest was between two teams of eight. One team had to pull the other six feet along in order to win. If after 5 minutes no team had done this, the team which had pulled the most was declared the winner. Great Britain won 2 gold medals, 2 silver, and 1 bronze.


The male howler monkey can produce sounds that can be heard 10 miles away. This breed is found in South America.

red howler monkey sounds


Dogs can smell about 1,000 times better than humans. While humans have 5 million smell-detecting cells, dogs have more than 220 million. The part of the brain that interprets smell is also four times larger in dogs than in humans.


In 1881, an anarchist and lawyer named Charles Guiteau shot President James Garfield in the back with a five-barrel, .44-caliber pistol called a British Bulldog. He said he chose the gun because it would look good on display in a museum someday. No one currently knows where the gun is.  Garfield didn’t die from the gunshot wounds, but from blood poisoning after doctors tried to remove the bullet from his back with dirty instruments. Guiteau claimed during his trial that he didn’t kill the President, the doctors had.  He was convicted anyway.

Personal Log, February 20, 2012

Random facts:

The federal holiday being observed today is NOT President’s Day.  The official name of the federal holiday is George Washington’s Birthday.


A can of Progresso™ Chicken Corn Chowder soup has 400 calories, 18g of fat, and 1780mg of sodium.  I thought Progresso™ was supposed to be healthy.  At least there’s no trans fats.


The Roman Emperor Elagabulus was known to employ a prototype of the Whoopee Cushion at dinner parties.  This may be the origin of the term “party pooper.”


In 1818, John Cleves Symmes, Jr. suggested that the Earth contained a hollow shell about 1,300 km (810 mi) thick, with openings about 2,300 km (1,400 mi) across at both poles with 4 inner shells each open at the poles.  Symmes petitioned Congress to send an expedition to the top of the earth to test his theory and find the hole.  25 members of Congress voted in favor of the expedition.  President John Quincy Adams indicated he would approve of this, but he left office before this could occur.


At the age of 11, Benjamin Franklin invented swim fins.


Whittemore

Whittemore

The oldest player to have ever played in the NFL was George Blanda, who was 48 years old when he retired.  Satchel Paige was the oldest Major League Baseball player at 59.  John Whittemore of Montecito, California, has been credited as being the “world’s oldest athlete.”  He competed in a track meet on October 5, 2004, just six weeks before his 105th birthday, throwing the javelin and discus.


The common guinea pig was first domesticated as a food source in about 2000 BC by the people living in the Andes Mountains.  They are still a major part of the diet in Peru and Bolivia to this day.  Peruvians consume an estimated 65 million guinea pigs each year.  One famous painting of the Last Supper in the largest cathedral in Cusco, Peru shows Christ and the twelve disciples eating a guinea pig.

Personal Log, 02/09/2012

I’m home from work today because of an ingrown toenail on the big toe on my right foot.  Yesterday, it took me 20 minutes to get my shoe on, and the toe was in agony most of the day.  Especially after I accidentally kicked a big metal toolbox.  I told my coworkers that I needed a toe-truck.

Back in September or October, I stubbed my toe, and cracked the toenail.  Part of the toenail fell off.  Ever since, I’ve been digging, filing, cutting, and clipping, trying to remove the nasty sharp spur on the left edge of the toenail

It hasn’t worked.

Did you know that Orajel™ works on sore toes, not just teeth and gums?  Dab a bit of Orajel™ right on the sore spot, and a few minutes later, you can poke it with minimal pain.

This morning, I decided it wasn’t worth the agony of trying to get a shoe over my enlarged toe, and then standing and walking on it all day, so I took a sick day, and have been sitting in my recliner with my foot up most of the day.  I go to the podiatrist tomorrow morning, so he can yank it out.  I’m not sure I’ve ever looked forward to having part of a toenail yanked out before, but I can’t wait to get it over with.

It’s been a fun few days.

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Addendum, 2/10/2012

The doctor yanked out the whole left side of the toenail this morning.  It’s now wrapped up in gauze the size of a golf ball.  I’ve got a shoe on my left foot, and a sandal on my right, because there’s no way to cram the toe in a normal shoe.  And, since the Novocain wore off, it hurts worse than before.  So, I’m sitting with my feet up, missing another day of work, surfing the Web, and working on my blog.

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